a massive amount. and I'm at a point of my life (or phase) right now that I'm grateful for them. not because they're particularly encouraging all the time, but it's nice and freeing to be able to swim in my own thoughts, within my own head. it's liberating. do you ever feel that way?
I mentioned it here before, but I find it increasingly hard to share my thoughts with mum without being shut down. it's just, maybe being an only child and all, sometimes I long to have the kind of intimate mother-daughter relationship that's on the telly, the ones that some of my friends have. and I know, I know that I'm not the only one in this position. but it'd be nice, just once or twice, if she didn't make me feel like my thoughts are so diminutive, so unworthy.
I don't like closing myself on her, but I think at the end of the day it's probably best for the both of us. I like my thoughts freely swimming in my head, and not drowned by floods of profuse condemnation.