I'm at the office and it really smells like dettol all over right now, horrible horrible smell. like whiteboard markers, that just sting into your nose. but no more about that now.
it's fascinating how someone can tell you that you're a beautiful person one minute (a point I'd very much like to beg to differ), and hurt your feelings the next.
it's wonderful how a person can text you one morning to disregard their opinion about how you don't need friends, and then tell you that you're a sad, sad person approximately fifteen hours later.
it's all quite new to me, this contradiction thing, and today I just want to let it go. I think sometimes, it is during moments like this that I just really want to disconnect, and save myself from all of it. but then, when you close yourself to bad, you're also closing yourself to good.
so it's a hard draw, but today I've just decided that, you know what? I'll just live to my own jam, and no one else's. I like to think that I've got it pretty good, and I know what a great jam is. jam to my own jam, if you will. and do the things I love, among the things I have to. live a life not bound by others' rules, but liberated by my own. be clear on what I want, and not let others' contradicting ways eat into my own ways of life.