common theme this month has been, 'what am I doing with my life?'
not in that bitter, lost in the woods kind of way that I was going about things for the first half of the year. now, it's just, the 'what's my purpose for the day?' kind of way. since watching the secret life of walter mitty, I have reaffirmed my way of life.
a big part of this reaffirmation is that, I can't be all that I want to be, all at the same time. it just cannot happen, and in many ways, it shouldn't happen like that. change shouldn't take place so fast, it should take place by parts. parts could be memories, attitudes, people we meet, the relationships we build, places we go. accepting this, gladly, has helped me immensely. I now understand that just because I can't do it all, it does not mean that I'm lacking or incapable.
I should always yearn for more, but also know that now, at where I am, is okay. I am bettering and bettering myself more and more with each second, minute, hour, day that I embrace this. it's been a big wake-up call... but I'm glad, so glad, that it finally came in some form and shape.