I think I'm speaking the truth when I sat that I don't compare myself to others often. It's weird to think that I don't do it often, because it's a human thing to do. So it almost feels like I'm being egotistic when I say it. Recently though, I broke away from the often side of things and began comparing myself to others. And by recently, I mean today. Without going into it too much, I sought to be more approachable today. I wished I was more confident in approaching people, better at conversing with strangers and all that. I admired those who could just make conversations, have strong opinions about things and could look at something and just comment straight up.
I wished I had the courage to do all that, sunny, oh how I wished. I think it's something to do with having no actual friends on campus... and today, after a whole day of class, I decided that's it, I'm not going to pressure myself into making friends. I'll just focus on my study, and if I find a friend, I find a friend. Because in actual fact, I didn't mind not having friends, but I have had some for so long, it felt weird I suppose.