it's me. michelle! thank you for your comments lately... it's been such a joy opening up my mailbox to find "new comment from..." you! Who else, right? Haha. No, really, it's been nice... though no pressure at all to comment on any future posts. Just comment when you feel like.
You mentioned that I'm really good in expressing things... that made me smile, and also once again reminded that while I'm good with articulating my thoughts and feelings in written words, I don't fare well when I have to do it in person. I keep my mouth shut, my feelings wounded up tight. I like to think that it's a deliberate decision that I make, but really, expressing my feelings is something that I'm just unable to do. Lashing out, crying in front of those that hurt me... I haven't been able to do that. In hindsight it's probably a good thing, and I like to think it's because I'm strong. But then again, I don't know.
It might just mean that I'm weak, that I'm afraid to show how I truly feel.
I hope the anger and hurt that have surfaced in you, and perhaps, resurfaced, harder this time, will eventually lighten up. It mustn't be easy on you to spend so much of your day around those that hurt you. You look at them, talk to them, and for the most part, you can't act in hurt and anger towards them. I feel for you, and I hope it will get better soon.