The plan of attack now is to go to the uni on monday, and ask them what I can do to get a place there. Because it's a 0.05 difference! But I know, I know, I can only hope. Mum and I were discussing last night, and she said if I liked the campus so much, I would be able to negotiate my way to Bachelor of Environments, as I had put it down and the ATAR required is lower (I would make it). But I thought about it... and perhaps it would be better for me to do a semester at monash, get good grades and apply to transfer mid year, or even at the end of my first year. That means I will still have some credits left from monash that I could transfer to my study at melb (if I get in).
It would be amazing, though, if I could get in this year.
A colleague just asked me, "so, you found out your results!" I was reluctant to tell her, but I told her the situation. She said, "does it actually count? the 0.05?" I nodded, and said yes. Told her I got accepted into monash as well, and she said, "oh, well, monash is really good as well!" -- similar to what everyone is saying. I kind of didn't have a response for her... haha, even though I know she meant well. And I know, Sunny, I know it's good as well. I keep telling myself, "Monash, good, Monash, good" -- trying to force the idea that I love Monash... but at the end of the day, I don't find it appealing. When I went on Open Day, I just didn't quite like the campus... and it just didn't grab my heart like melb did.
It seems pedantic of me, it seems stubborn of me... and I'm trying so hard to not lead myself down that pathway. I will accept Monash's offer, but I do hope a better one comes along. I know I'm already extremely blessed to be able to go to uni, so I'm trying to keep that in mind as best as I can.