I met up with a couple of old friends today at the uni... the same ones I met up with last week, Khim and Sonia. To be honest, since last week, some parts of me weren't feeling quite great upon meeting them... because I realised how to a point, they had become bigger headed after their time here at Melbourne Uni. It was little things they said, like, "Welcome to the elites!" I know such a line was meant to make me feel elevated, but yet, I thought to myself, "Elites? What's that supposed to mean?" Because as much as I wanted to get in, I never considered myself to be elite once I became a Melbourne Uni student.
A day after meeting them, I met up with Amy... who told me the same thing about Elena, who had the same big headedness about being in Melbourne... to the point she repeatedly put Amy down for being in another university and not Melbourne. Reflecting on all this... it is not my intention to relish in the ways that my friends had changed, but just reflecting in hope that these changes won't take place within me. I told Papa and Mum to give me a nudge if it does.
I guess you could say it's something I feel strongly internally, but not on the external front. Met up with them again today, as they had wanted to meet up again... and it was good. Certainly a nice reminder why I'm friends with them... and also a reminder of our closeness/distance. I think that's the thing with friendship, with interaction... sometimes you just can't force it and let it roam as far as it goes. It might not be far at all, but maybe, just maybe, that's the right distance.